On a trip to Alaska years ago, I stood silently in the woods and watched a young momma Grizzly Bear stand to defend her three cubs against a big male bear, roaring in his face as the cubs clamored up a tree to safety. I remember feeling terrified, then wondering what I would do in the same situation. Now that I’m a mother I know that I would do the same to defend my child. I would do anything for my son. I don’t care how other people feel about nursing in public or breastfeeding past a certain age; I know what’s best for my son.
Writing a blog about breastfeeding has been a fun way to chronicle our journey. I have loved sharing our successes, like celebrating six months of breastfeeding or thanking my husband for being so helpful. When times got tough, when I was sad about time spent away from my baby, I was able to pour my heart out. I know that when I look back on my posts I’ll be transported back to those times.
My breastfeeding posts have also kept me on track. When I think about how hard it is to keep up with pumping, I’m motivated by the thought of sharing with other moms in our situation. In the really difficult times, I know I can’t let down my readers by quitting! (Not to mention letting down my son!) I’ve loved getting the feedback, tips and support from other working moms. Since I don’t know any other currently working/pumping mothers, the online support has been invaluable.
My writing here at the Breastfeeding Diaries has focused on expressing milk at work, but our journey will soon be taking a different direction. Joshua is one years old (wow!) and I’ll be transitioning away from pumping. While I plan to start moving away from expressed milk and toward cow’s milk while Joshua is at daycare, I don’t plan to quit breastfeeding. Lately I’ve enjoyed talking to mommas who have nursed through pregnancy or tandem-nursed, and I see myself allowing Joshua to self-wean. I hope we still have months, or maybe even years of our breastfeeding journey ahead of us.