I’ve read that breastfed babies become very attached to their mothers… I’ve learned about things like “co-sleeping” and “baby-wearing” and I’ve come to realize that breastfeeding mothers, grow very attached to their babies. I was certain that Aiden would sleep in his own crib but he sleeps with me, I have a nice stroller to walk him in but I prefer to wear him close in his carrier, I thought that after three months of being home cleaning poop/pee/baby-spit-up all day that I would be ready to get back to work, but I am not. I am so not ready.
Still, in two weeks I am starting back at the office and I have to come to terms with this. I’m so grateful that my mom will be Aiden’s full time babysitter because I trust her so much, but still, it’s going to be so hard to leave my baby. I know one thing for sure – I do not want to compromise his nutrition and all the progress we have made nursing so I will do everything in my power to make sure he keeps getting my breastmilk. I have started pumping on my downtime and am stocking the freezer so that we have a little “safety net” that first week.
I spoke with my boss about pumping and there is an empty office that I can use so we are all set. I wonder if I should record Aiden’s cries on my Blackberry and look at pictures of him to make sure the milk flows… I’ll do whatever it takes – we aren’t taking any steps back now!
I also plan to nurse every chance I get… in the evenings, early in the mornings, weekends, the overnight feedings. I secretly (well, I guess not so secretly) wish that the overnight feedings never end so that we can keep nursing. I can’t believe that I am even thinking that! But it’s true, I want to keep nursing! Right now, I am working with Aiden to take bottles since he has as of late been rejecting them. I do hope he will come around and take a bottle but I hope he doesn’t forget about me!
Going back to work is going to be challenging but I have to find the strength to be the best working mama I can be…
Do you have any tips for getting ready to go back to work?